there are the mornings where your back cracks
as you reach over seeking for the curve of my hip
and thunder rumbles through the clouds outside
just a single second after your sleepy bones sigh.
sometimes there are mornings where aches spread
slowly down the slopes of your thighs before coming
to a rest behind relaxed knees and the skin there is nice
and warm when my cold ankles come to rest around them.
other times there are mornings where angry winds howl
through the bars of our ribcages oh-so-loudly and we’re
so sick and tired of feeling sick and tired that the walls
tremble in fear as we play our least favourite game of pushp
when people are in love, they
tend to aim far, make extraordinary
goals, and weave hundreds of
promises in and out of their pores
with the thickest threads they can
get their hands on
they want singing birds, unnamed
galaxies that only belong to them,
an eternal supply of fireworks lodged
safely in the crevices of their hearts,
and maps of each other’s bodies
but i am content with your voice,
the presence of you in my head, your
name and how innocent letters thread
together to form something so beautiful,
and the way pain bows aside to let you in
(refer to: loving realistically)
some say that a handful of names will
always taste bitter on your tongue
even if you never have to feel the
weight of each individual letter on
your tastebuds ever again
but only fools would move forward
without tasting other letters that
could lift that bitterness off your
tongue and replace it with something
sweeter, gentler, tastier
(refer to: the moving on)
nothing hangs directly above your head
weighing down on a strand of possiblys and maybes
and your mouth dries up somewhat as
you stare up at it with heavy eyes.
somewhere across the room fire is
seeping down the edges of an old newspaper
and an ash flake drifts down to the carpet where it
bleeds and blends and is nowhere to be seen.
you were born wild and you won’t
stop running until it’s over but you must first
look past the beads of expensive sadness
wound around your neck because your life depends on it.
the number 820 is scribbled down your arm and you think
you’ve said goodbye to someone 820 times before
becaus
there’s a cross inked down the flat plane of his back,
one thick line of black punctured by the jut of bone,
but a shrug of fabric later and that’s all gone –
was it ever really there in the first place?
the lone paper bag in the corner of the room
has wrinkles all over its front and back,
trademark symbols of wisdom and serenity –
gone through mass production and rough hands.
a still body of water slowly clouds over in the tub,
the temperature warm enough to fight away goosebumps
but cold enough for you to want to sink into it and never rise –
one slow trickle is all it takes for empty gaps to fill up over
she lives with jagged horns up and down her back that her hair gets caught up in. sleep comes rarely, and when it does, it prefers to tangle itself between the strands of her hair instead of seeping into her eyes. she stays awake with round little things that people call happy pills – she thinks they taste vile, but they’re the only things keeping her awake. acid breaks out of the happy pills as they land in her stomach, and she can feel them biting through the walls, fighting their way into tired bloodstreams.
sometimes she cracks into minuscule bits like a porcelain doll dropped on wood. she wonders if hammering her pieces with